I got my new mp3 player last June 21. My brother already loaded some songs in the player, so all i have to do is charge it and listen to the songs afterwards. I wonder "where the hell my brother got these songs!" i thought to myself. Then i discovered these two songs from Leona Lewis.. I ACTUALLY LOVE THEM! You can also listen to the music in my playlist, tracks 10 and 11 ^_^

I wanna share this literary work i received from a classmate way back in college.. here it goes..

I sat here in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called "BESTFRIEND". I stared at her LONG, SILKY HAIR, and I wished she was mine. But she DIDN'T NOTICE ME LIKE THAT, and I KNEW IT. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said "Thanks" ans gave me a kiss on the cheek, I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

11th grade, the phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears mumbling on and on about how her love broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After two hours, one Drew Barymore movie, and three bags of chips, che decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "Thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

Senior year, the day before prom, she walked to my locker, "My date is sick." she said. "He's not gonna go, well, I didn't have a date," and in the 7th grade, we made a PROMISE that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "BESTFRIENDS". So we did go to the Prom night. After everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I WANT HER TO BE MINE, BUT SHE DOESN'T THINK OF ME LIKE THAT, AND I KNEW IT. Then she said, "I had a great time, THANKS!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

A day passed, then a week, then months, and a year. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched her PERFECT BODY floated like an ANGEL on the stage to get her diploma. I WANT HER TO BE MINE, BUT SHE DIDN'T NOTICE ME LIKE THAT, AND I KNEW IT. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "YOU'RE MY BESTFRIEND, THANKS!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her TO BE MINE, BUT SHE DIDN'T SEE ME LIKE THAT AND I KNEW IT. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "YOU CAME!" she said "THANKS!" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

Years passed, I looked down at her coffin, coffin of a girl who used to be my "BESTFRIEND". At the service, they read a diary entry she had written in her high school years. This is what it read:

"... I STARED AT HIM WISHING HE WAS MINE, BUT HE DOESN'T NOTICE ME LIKE THAT, AND I KNEW IT, I WANT TO TELL HIM, I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT US TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HIM BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY... I WISH HE WOULD TELL ME THAT HE LOVES ME..."

"I WISH I DID, TOO..." I thought to myself, and I cried.

Do yourself a favor, tell him/her that you love him/her. Even if you don't know how they'll react, just tell them how you "REALLY" feel about them. They won't be there forever. Time will come and they'll appreciate the love you've given them.

This is a lesson that i have to learn yet.. many times i failed to show how much i appreciate the people around me. But i think i'm slowly learning.. to be more expressive. Anyways i have nothing to lose if i show or say how i really feel.. it gives me peace and contentment in return.

After many weeks of "busy-ness" coz of chatting, i finally had the inspiration to blog up again.. haha!

May 31st, the first time that im going to meet Mei-unni, Lyssa, and Velvet. 11:30am i woke up using alarm clock coz im so scared that i myt woke up late. i had a quick shower and had a light brunch. I turned my closet upside down to find something comfy and nice to wear. I was always keeping in mind to wear something simple, not really to dress up coz we are going to Sta. Cruz to hunt DVDs.

1:30pm i arrived at SM North EDSA to meet Velvet. Hmm.. she's late! haha but it's ok coz she had a very good reason like forgetting her money at home. lolz! we went to LRT Monumento Station to meet Lyssa. We rode a taxi going there coz it's so hot outside! grrr! we met Lyssa at around 2:30pm. So we got on the train and chatted a little coz we have to get off at Tayuman Station to meet Mei-unni (fresh from the spa! lolz!).

So our first stop, Lights and Sounds Museum.. bits and pieces of history that i've just learned.. haha still many things for me to learn about history! Of course we didn't forget to take pictures! haha but most of the pictures are not so good coz we look haggard coz of the hot temperature outside! sheezzz! we dropped by Luneta... hayyy havent been there for quite some time! hahaha we had fun walking around and taking scenic pictures and fooling around like kids!

Next stop, DVD shops at Sta.Cruz.. no piccus for this place coz.. ehem.. its kinda not very safe there. hehe! on our way to the DVD shops, Mei-unni brought us to a stall where you can buy sugar cane juice. it was my first time to try it out. it was so delicious and of course sweet! it was such a fun experience, overwhelming to see lotsa DVDs of Asian Dramas that i've watched and havent watch yet. I bought TKA and Nodame Cantabile DVD.

Its already getting dark when we arrived at Robinsons' Place Ermita to have dinner. We already have chosen to dine at Secret Recipe beforehand. the dinner was sumptuous and filling! hehe we need to eat a lot to recover from the walking marathon that we had. so while we were waiting for our food to be served, we callled several TKAers like Granelle and Jyo, we also tried reaching Cherr and Gangan but their phones couldn't be reached. Reiz(my dawty) called me also. after finishing dinner... a moment of silence.. hahahha something i found out that's common for all of us.. quiet when full!!!

After eating, we strolled for some time and checked out some boutiques. we went out of the mall around 9:00pm already and had some piccus again beside the fountain. we even asked a group of teens to take a pic for us! lolz!

So its going home time! Velvet had to ride a FX, then me, Mei-unni, and Lyssa took the train again..

It was one experience that i'll never forget. One thing is because it was my first time to meet people that i've come to know only in chat. Second is that its my first time again to get into social life..