Thanks to Levi for sharing Baby, Don't You Break My Heart Slow (track 13) mp3. So after being in LSS mode for Leona Lewis' songs.. now im into Vonda Shepard songs from Ally McBeal. The second song I Know Him By Heart (track 14), i just found it while digging in the playlist of other imeem-ers who love Ally McBeal. Ok, so here's the lyric scroller for track 14! ^^

When i started chatting, i think i was in my sophomore year in college that time, i was so new to chatting jargons like "weebee, asl, ctc.. and brb". But i think "brb" is the most used chat jargon in the TKA Villa since i started chatting there. Well, maybe because some chatters are chatting while waiting for the TKA clips to finish buffering, then excuse themselves by using "brb" and make their exit in the chatbox. Or, maybe just busy with something else for a moment.

I use "brb" very often coz i chat during work hours.. yes WORK HOURS! hahaha! Multitasking as what some regulars told me. But sometimes i get confused with "brb". Like, how long should u be gone if u typed "brb"? And, how long should u wait if someone typed "brb"?

According to www.urbandictionary.com, "brb" means that someone is going to return at some random point that you're unable to predict. Hmm.. so it means it could be as long as an hour, or even a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade, a century.. hahaha sorry for the exaggeration!

How about the definition that i've come up.. "brb" is a form of escape for the following scenarios: 1. You can't relate to the topic being discussed in chatroom; 2. You don't want to answer a certain question asked, or; 3. You are simply avoiding the person.

I've come up with those situations coz i have tried using "brb" at those times and it actually worked. And, maybe i have experienced or at least felt that some are using "brb" for those events.

So you said "brb"... hmm.. i told myself "i think i shouldn't wait anymore"...

I got my new mp3 player last June 21. My brother already loaded some songs in the player, so all i have to do is charge it and listen to the songs afterwards. I wonder "where the hell my brother got these songs!" i thought to myself. Then i discovered these two songs from Leona Lewis.. I ACTUALLY LOVE THEM! You can also listen to the music in my playlist, tracks 10 and 11 ^_^

I wanna share this literary work i received from a classmate way back in college.. here it goes..

I sat here in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called "BESTFRIEND". I stared at her LONG, SILKY HAIR, and I wished she was mine. But she DIDN'T NOTICE ME LIKE THAT, and I KNEW IT. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said "Thanks" ans gave me a kiss on the cheek, I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

11th grade, the phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears mumbling on and on about how her love broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After two hours, one Drew Barymore movie, and three bags of chips, che decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "Thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

Senior year, the day before prom, she walked to my locker, "My date is sick." she said. "He's not gonna go, well, I didn't have a date," and in the 7th grade, we made a PROMISE that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "BESTFRIENDS". So we did go to the Prom night. After everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I WANT HER TO BE MINE, BUT SHE DOESN'T THINK OF ME LIKE THAT, AND I KNEW IT. Then she said, "I had a great time, THANKS!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

A day passed, then a week, then months, and a year. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched her PERFECT BODY floated like an ANGEL on the stage to get her diploma. I WANT HER TO BE MINE, BUT SHE DIDN'T NOTICE ME LIKE THAT, AND I KNEW IT. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "YOU'RE MY BESTFRIEND, THANKS!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her TO BE MINE, BUT SHE DIDN'T SEE ME LIKE THAT AND I KNEW IT. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "YOU CAME!" she said "THANKS!" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HER BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

Years passed, I looked down at her coffin, coffin of a girl who used to be my "BESTFRIEND". At the service, they read a diary entry she had written in her high school years. This is what it read:

"... I STARED AT HIM WISHING HE WAS MINE, BUT HE DOESN'T NOTICE ME LIKE THAT, AND I KNEW IT, I WANT TO TELL HIM, I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT US TO BE JUST FRIENDS, I LOVE HIM BUT I'M JUST TOO SHY, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY... I WISH HE WOULD TELL ME THAT HE LOVES ME..."

"I WISH I DID, TOO..." I thought to myself, and I cried.

Do yourself a favor, tell him/her that you love him/her. Even if you don't know how they'll react, just tell them how you "REALLY" feel about them. They won't be there forever. Time will come and they'll appreciate the love you've given them.

This is a lesson that i have to learn yet.. many times i failed to show how much i appreciate the people around me. But i think i'm slowly learning.. to be more expressive. Anyways i have nothing to lose if i show or say how i really feel.. it gives me peace and contentment in return.